No sleep

As i closed my eyes it remained in my mind engraved in stone the image of a stick figure like african god with large breasts dancing around a camp fire. I think its time to cancel the discovery channel

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taken by the darkness, soon taken by the light, overpowered by the desire in his eyes, its not the path i want but the path i choose to take, dear i wish i felt more but my screams and cries are fake, farmiliar in this bedroom im crushed beneath his weight, i have to hold it back but the pain i feel i hate, now it rests within my stomach, the burning melts my heart, he wraps his arms around me "let us never be apart," its times like this that scare me, i wish he didnt care, instead of letting go i run my fingers through his hair, but the time has come for me to leave, i have to head back "home," it hurts so much to leave him but i long to be alone, exhausted in my bedroom i slip into my gown, crawl into my bed, i cry. the loving tears me down.

acting like an object

Groping blindly for you
I feel too much
Knowing nothing of you
I try to hard
Deep down I know
I an mearly an object

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Come to me
Find me through the night
Through the dark of my room
Gaze down upon me as I pretend to sleep
Do you fear me?
Don't
Can you find my heart?

baby just touch my face
pretend it actually means something
tell me your lies not above a whisper
baby just feel my skin
kiss me like you mean it
touch me as you would touch a flower
baby just make it theatre
act as though you hold some value
fuck me like it was the last time every time
baby just tell me you love me
look me in the eye and i'll believe you
dont let it show that you look straight through me

im so glad no one reads this stuff

i want to push you onto the bed and take your clothes off. i want to tease you. i want you to shiver with antisipation. you cant hold out any longer? push me off you and get on top. im such a little tease... how will you punish me? will you smack me across the face? ive been such a bad girl daddy... you'll have to make me suffer. grab my cunt. do you feel how wet it is? im enjoying this, like any whore would. how do you want to fuck me? do you want to look at my face? or would you rather fuck me on my stomach? maybe a little taste of both. when you cant stand looking at me, push me onto my stomach. slam your dick deep inside of me. do i moan loud enough? is my pussy loose like a whore? do you want to hold my arms behind my back? watch me struggle. see the helpless little slut between your legs, you could do anything to her... how long will you fuck me? how hard? the harder you thrust, the louder your little fuck toy will moan. do you want to kiss me? what if i pull away? you'll have to teach me a lesson. oh, youre going to come already? where do you want to come? are you going to pull out then fuck me again? will you grab my cunt while you come? squeeze it so hard i moan even louder. are you going to come a second time? i think you want to... maybe you'll come inside me this time. if im going to act like a whore, i better take it like a whore... was it good enough? will you fuck your little whore again later? you want me to suck it clean, i can tell...

Unfortunate events

A shed fell on my car.



it sucked.

I keep having weird dreams that might be telling me something or might just be really weird.

I dreamt that God came to me wearing red and white striped pajamas and told me that money was my vice.

I dreamt that my old boss owned a target and there was a section with pets and the puppies were killing each other, but in ways that people would kill each other. Then my car broke down on a spiral ramp inside of a mall.

I dreamt that i was still in high school and that a friend of mine was spraying everyone with a fire hose.

I dreamt that i was in some sort of water plant or something. There was a lot of water like at the aquarium but i dont recall fish. i was supposed to babysit ben, and forgot to stay with him after i put him to bed and ended up at this place. when i realized that i should still be with ben i freaked out and was trying to get back to him, and ended up in trouble because i went into a restricted area. then i was trying to find my room (like in a hotel) and the stairs were impossible to walk on, they were like planks of wood turned so that you had to use the narrow part as the step. Laura Flyyn Boyle was there, and i dont like her. I was wearing these shoes that i have a hard time keeping on my feet trying to walk on the weird stairs and it sucked. The floors of the hotel were out of order. At some point i was walking up a ramp and the man that had interviewed me on monday shouted out to me "im older than you think." i didnt know how to react so i said "so am i." he said that i didnt understand, and i said back "ask anyone, i only date older men." and then i woke up.

What?????